Final revelations of a tortured mind...

Right. Common sense slap this morning.
Life's too short.

I've re-read some of my blog entries from the last couple of weeks and im developing a victim complex. I'm reading lots of psychology at the moment because I want to figure myself out somehow and I dont believe in the "going and finding yourself" nonsense. I just want to know how, and why my personality reacts to things in certain ways and how some of that can be changed to avoid future, shall we say, lapses in quality lifestyle.

So here's my findings so far.. I have a burgeoning victim complex with no real sense of blame allocated to anything which is leaving me with too many loose ends to deal with. My Neitszche complex is perfectly healthy and I have no intention of changing it - besides it gives me at least 1 personality trait other than caffeine addiction! Hating all of mankind gives plenty of scope to complain about things anyway, without justifying it. Plus I can be a big stinking great hypocrite whenever I like! :)

Following on from the findings, here's what's going to happen. Life may have been a mild disaster so far, well last month or so anyway, but these things happen. There's always the temptation to point the finger of blame and find excuses. But im not saying anymore on the relationship subject. What's done is done.

So, with that now sorted, I have a home now in gorgeous Stony Stratford, circle of friends is rebuilding rather rapidly. I have hobbies and interests to fill my spare time with. I'm resurecting my fencing abilities (and I dont mean sticking up wooden panels, I mean jabbing people with pointy bits of metal), I'm starting golf properly as soon as Kaaaaaaaaaal sorts dates out.
My study of oriental bladed weapons is getting a bit detailed and im learning a huge amount..

Tonight I'm off to see King Kong with a friend, and grab some food.. and make a feeble attempt at crimbo shopping again.

I really really do hate Xmas. It's a religious celebration? Why cant that take the form of me nailing people I dont like to crosses in my back garden? Or wiping out large groups of people in proper wrath of god fire and brimstone style?

I think I'll actually just have to do what I do every year.. pushing toddlers over in shopping centres.